Crazy Dreams

Life is a crazy thing. I have been looking back and it's a scary thing to realize that I have been out of high school for 4 years now. It's so surreal to think how fast life really goes. I love life and I thank God everyday for the blessings that I have received. I have been getting a lot of great "breaks" lately with my singing and I couldn't be happier. I think it is a miracle when life takes you in totally different direction that you thought you would be going in...what's even crazier is when you realize that it is all meant to be. I am 100 percent ready for what life has to give me from this point on. I am determined to finish school and get that degree that everyone waves in the air and feels special...lol. I don't think college is a waste of time, but it certainly isn't meant for everyone and that's okay. I believe I was somewhere in the middle of that and I am glad that I experienced college and everything that went with it. I believe that God has a plan for everyone. The most amazing experiences are when something happens and at the time it seems as if it is the worst thing that could happen to you, but you later realize (sometimes years down the road) that is for the good...I think those moments are priceless. There have been times in my life when I didn't understand why something was happening and later realized just how lucky I was...I trust very few people in my life...I think putting your full trust in someone other than God is dangerous because we are all human and we all hurt the others around us at some point, no matter how much you care about someone. The past 12 months of my life have been nothing other than a complete blessing...I have been so blessed and I have often stopped and asked myself, "why me?" I mean...why is all this "good" happening to me. I have struggled with this for sometime now and I have come to the conclusion that I am meant to make a difference...I have a purpose in life. Now, I haven't completely figured out what my purpose is, but I have been given a clearer path over the course of the past year. I feel like I think I know where I am suppose to go and I feel confident about how I am going to get there. I thrive on trying to "find the path." Don't get me wrong, there are times when I just want to know what life has in store for me, but at the same time, I love the mystery and the little things and events that seem to open your eyes just a little more that are along with road in life.
Winning my most recent competition, Cell Phone Superstar, was one of those things that have opened my eyes just a little more. Upon graduation, I planned on packing up and moving to Nashville, TN. Crazy? Yes, but isn't life supposed to be crazy? I think if you can't recall at least 5 really big, life-altering, crazy things by the time you are 65, then your life wasn't complete. This goes along with my belief in spending money. If you work hard, spend your money! Spend it on something that makes you happy, that makes someone else happy, that will forever engrave a memory inside in your heart and mind, etc. Don't get me wrong, I believe saving money is a wise, wise decision, but if you save too much, you start to miss the opp. to live and enjoy life. Look at it this way, you could die tomorrow...if you die, the only thing that would matter is what you did during the time spent alive..enough about that. Back to the moving thing---Nashville has been a dream of mine and I do plan on moving there after I graduate! I am so excited, but since I made the decision, I have certainly questioned if this is my path or not. Well...this radio comp. comes along and how much more of a sign do I need?! Winning a national singing comp. that is based in Nashville is like a sign that this is my path...how many aspiring artists that plan to move to Nashville can say that they have met and made connections with a record label before moving? I am blessed (^)...
My life motto is, "Everything happens for a reason." This phrase has gotten me through some of the toughest times in my life...no lie. Understanding that everyone has a purpose and the fact that God has a big plan is like the most comforting part of life. Tell me this doesn't fit into this category...just another reason why I believe life is a miracle and God works in mysterious ways-- I did a competition this summer, called Lakeshore's Rising Stars in which I met an amazing friend, Jodi. She and I somehow were seated next to each other during both audition days...crazy...but we got through auditions together. Unfortunately, she didn't make it to the top 10 (even though she is amazing;)), but she still came to every show...through which I got to know her better. Then I find out that she is coming to GB for school in the Fall and she is in my choir, etc. Jodi listens to the station that hosted this Cell Phone Superstar comp.and she was the one who told me about it...I would have never known about it without her. I think it's a miracle that her and I were meant to meet...Part of my winnings was a trip for two to Colorado for a week long music festival called Music in the Rockies and I asked her to join me! She is such an amazing person and she is truly a gift from God. Thank you Jodi...Thank you God...